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“People die or leave when you need them most. Nothing is ever certain. Nothing is ever sure.” – Kailor Smith
When Kailor Smith’s mother dies, her life crumbles. Completely. Still looking out for her in death, Asia sends Kailor on a journey of self-discovery. The journey, meant to be a six-month path of fun and finding purpose, leads Kailor to Finley Trails where she temporarily lives with her brother Kai… and his best friend and bandmate Zion Johnson.
Zion Johnson is convinced that he has only two things to offer the world – his music and his manhood. Nothing more, like love, but definitely nothing less. After losing his parents at a young age, he’s convinced it’s his job to protect every damsel that comes his way. Even his best friend’s sister. No matter how much his best friend wants him to stay away.
As Kailor and Zion’s paths collide, they find themselves on a journey of healing and love together. There’s just one problem; their union is forbidden. Not only could their relationship destroy Zion and Kai’s friendship, but it also has the potential to ruin their band and all of the success they’ve built. The odds are stacked against them, and for a while they are even at war with their own feelings, but Kailor and Zion must choose between love or the numbing pain they have both accepted as their truths.
“Zion,” she called, grabbing at my shirt. “You’re so huge. You’re all I see every time I walk into a room. And you’re beautiful, but in a manly way. You’re the most beautifulist man I’ve ever seen in my whole entire life.”
“Beautifulist?” I repeated, trying not to feel a way. It was kind of hard to do with someone as sweet and beautiful and magnetic paying me a compliment. “We making up words now?”
Kailor lifted herself from me and looked up at me. Her arm lifted, and she was so off balance that she swayed to the left. I wrapped my arm around her to steady her, and when I did, she ran her pointing finger along my scar.
“I think everything about you is beautiful.” Her head tilted as she stared at my scar. “Who did this to you?”
I couldn’t answer her. Couldn’t blink. Really couldn’t do anything. Not while she was touching me. Looking at me so intently. Admiring the thing, the memory, that I hated the most.
“Spot,” came from behind me, and at the sound of it Kailor looked around me. “I been looking for you.” Spot? Why did he keep calling her that? “Are you drunk?” Kai asked, walking over to us.
“I’m not drunk,” was what she said, but the overlapping of her words said otherwise. “I just had to do the number two.” Kailor burst into a fit of giggles as she held onto me for balance. “Not the booboo number two but the number two on my list.”
“I thought I told you not to try that shit until I could make sure you were straight?”
Out of instinct, I pulled Kailor behind me when he walked over to us.
“She’s good. I told you I had her.”
“And I told you I didn’t need you to.”
Kailor slipped out of my grasp and started walking in the opposite direction. As usual, she wasn’t watching where the hell she was going and bumped into a woman that was heading towards the house. Before she could fall, I grabbed her and lifted her into my arms.
“Really don’t want you to be still because it will hit you worse, but you need to sit down somewhere, sweetheart.”
Kailor smiled as she wrapped her arms around my neck. She rested her head on me, humming and going into her own little world.
“Spot, I’m about to get this girl’s number then I’ll take you home, okay?” Kai told her, to which she nodded.
“Why do you call her that shit?”
Kai released an aggravated sigh. “Her mama gave her that nickname because of her birthmark. That’s what everyone calls her.”
He turned, but stopped when I offered, “I’ll take her home.”
“You’ve done enough.”
“I have to throw up,” Kailor interjected.
At the sound of that, I lowered her from my arms so that I could put her back to my chest. With my arms wrapped around her pelvis, I carried her to the curb, putting her on her feet just in time. Holding her hair back, I looked back at Kai as he cursed and mumbled under his breath. I didn’t see why he was so damn irritated. This was what she needed. Obviously her mother wanted her to gain some life experiences, but she for damn sure was going to have to be away from him to do so.
While she released all of the liquor and food she’d just consumed, I rubbed her back and continued to hold on to her hair.
“You’re okay,” I assured her. “This is the hardest part, but you’ll go to sleep right after.”
She nodded before her mouth filled up again. When she was done, Kai made his way over to us.
“You made this mess, you clean it up, and don’t violate or disrespect my sister in any way while you do.”
The slick shit that fell out his mouth irritated me above all, but I knew he was only being this way because she was his sister, so I tried to let it ride.
“You know I wouldn’t do anything like that. I get that you want to protect her, but you will not disrespect me in the process.”
“Just take my sister home and make sure she’s okay. I’ll be down there as soon as I get this girls number.”
“Take your time,” I granted, lifting Kailor off her feet and placing her into my arms.
“I don’t like throwing up,” she whispered, holding me tightly. “Please, Lord, don’t let me have to throw up again.”
I couldn’t help but chuckle as I carried her down the street. She was the heaviest weightless thing I’d ever carried. Heavy because I could sense the grief that weighed her down. I knew that pain all too well. Weightless because if she’d let me, I was determined to carry all of her burdens, just as effortlessly as I was carrying her now.
Wish I could give a reason for it, but I couldn’t. All I could say was that I was drawn to her like a moth to a flame, and if destruction came from our connection… so be it. We made it to the house, and I carried her up the stairs carefully. They cracked at any given time, and the last thing I wanted to do was have one to collapse while I was carrying her. I’d already decided that I was going to give her my room so she wouldn’t have to deal with going up them, and this further convinced me that I needed to.
When I made it to her room, I sat her on the edge of the bed as I asked, “Are you comfortable enough in those clothes to sleep in them or do you need to take them off?”
She didn’t answer me vocally, just started taking off her clothes as exhaustion covered her face. I went through her bags that were on the floor until I found a pair of pajamas, then I handed them to her before I went downstairs to grab her a bottle of Gatorade and some Tylenol. After taking two of the Tylenol and drinking a third of the Gatorade, she laid down and was snoring quietly within seconds.
For a while, all I could was stand there and stare at her, but the sound of the front door slamming pulled me out of my trance. As Kai was coming up the stairs I was going down them. I motioned with my hand for him to turn around. He waited until we were in the living room to ask, “She good?”
“Yea, she’s asleep.”
Kai released a sigh of relief as he ran his hand down his face.
“Listen, Zion, you’re my guy, and I appreciate you entertaining my baby sister, but respect my request and leave her alone.”
“She needs a friend…”
“I’ll be that.”
I laughed as I shook my head. “You can’t. You’re not even being her brother. You’re being an overbearing, controlling rule giver, and I’m sure that’s the last thing she needs right now. If you want me to step back I will but not until you step up and show me that I can trust her with you.”
Since that was all I had to say on the matter, I headed for the kitchen in search of something else to drink. I didn’t feel comfortable going back to the party just in case Kailor woke up, but I was pretty sure she would be out for the rest of the night.
“I don’t need you to trust me with my sister, bruh. Who the hell do you think you are?”
I shrugged, really having no idea who I thought I was when it came to Kailor. Whoever I was to her, I felt like that’s what she needed me to be, and I wasn’t going to let Kai or anyone else rob her of that.
“Like I said, I’ll step back when you step up. She came here to escape. Give her the freedom to do so.”
Not wanting to admit that I was right, Kai stared at me for a few seconds before leaving. Unable to help myself, I went back upstairs after I’d fixed my drink and watched Kailor sleep until I went to sleep myself.
Get ready to read the rest of their story Wednesday, 9/12/18